Working on a new essay about Tarot and gender, and how it intersects with Intersex people— very exciting. Some years ago I met a wonderful person who has asked to remain anonymous in my blogging but I got his permission to blog about him and our Tarot reading sessions in light of the fact he is Intersex (he uses he/him as his preferred pronouns).
Also I’m revamping this blog (already changed the format to a lovely purple color which has greatly improved the thing) and editing past posts. I’ve finally figured out how to channel my political obsessions elsewhere, so that should be good. Also I noticed a number of interesting things about my writing as I read my past posts, to wit:
I have apologized in the past (briefly) about the limitations of writing about gender when you are writing about a system of divination that historically has depended on a binary. I didn’t realize, until I reread some of my blogposts, how deeply embedded my use of such language is. And it’s weird because I’ve always been genderqueer myself, so I’m not sure how I internalized such deeply limited language, but there it is. I’m not going to edit that stuff out, because I believe in progress, so I’m going to make an effort to start adding in what I’ve come to learn about reading cards for genderqueer/as a genderqueer person. In all honesty I’ve never been really public about this subject for myself— I’m in my forties, I’m not a young kid on tumblr making brand new discoveries. I can’t say I was ever particularly closetted, but maybe I was. I didn’t feel it, but maybe that’s why I didn’t deal with things that were actually important to me, and of interest to me. Thanks to several friends who have recently pointed this out, and made me think about it.
I have never bothered to spell out my own ethnic background because generally I don’t consider it anyone’s business on the internet. I started using the internet when it first became available— my dad and I were early adopters, and he was an engineer partly responsible for some of the original tech— and in those days anonymity was the default. I tend to operate like that even to this day, and I don’t plan to change that much, but still, in rereading my past posts I realize damn, I’m holding a lot back. That’s weird, man. And race is a part of it, so I’m gonna fix some of that as well as I go along.
Anyway, I’ve been absurdly busy the last year, and also coping with personal shit, so this blog has been on the back burner. I realized, I’m rapidly heading for twenty years as a Tarot reader, and I still enjoy it, and I still have new thoughts about the subject, so it’s time to try to get this blog back together again. So that’s it for now. I’m really happy about the new format I found, it seems pretty easy on the eyes, but if you have difficulty with it let me know— my ask is open if you have a tumblr account. (Anon is currently off, due to haters.)